Scan. Micah. Oct 2. Kind of hard.
I first need to say that we are praying for the Van Pelt family as they lay their son Kenton in the grave. He drowned last Saturday. I believe he was 14 or 15 years old. I can hardly fathom the pain and the sorrow. We are praying that they will feel the Lord close and that He will give them peace.
(Written last night)
Today we got a call telling us that Micah's next scan is Oct 2. I wasn't ready to hear it. We have decided to do a scan at 3 months instead of 6 to follow up on Micah's nodule or node or what ever he has in his belly. It is wise to keep an eye on it.
Ken and I struggled with this today. In the last week, I have realized really how far we are away from our safety net. I completely trust the US health system. In some ways, I think they may have it better than Canada. I would not hesitate to bring Micah in, regardless of the cost. God will always provide for our needs.
I think it's the fact that we have a team of doctors and nurses who know Micah and his health history in London.
In the last few days I have cried about this fact. I feel a little insecure. When we heard about the scan it crumbled me.
As I was doing dishes and working through these things, my thoughts were jumbled and my heart was aching at the possibilities. But this is what hit me quite suddenly:
God is so sovereign, is the Almighty, is my Strong Tower and is always faithful. He knows all things and has ordained all things from the beginning of time.
He will take our family where He wants us, when He wants to, and it will completely be for our good, regardless of whether we have sorrow or joy.
It's not always easy to give things over to God, I often fight. It means I am giving up the control I so badly want. But God is so good that He will help me to give it to Him. He will push me and stretch me until I am on my knees. That is where He wants me. He wants me to trust Him. Once I am there, He will take it away. The burden will lift and although I may still ache a little, He gives me a sweet peace.
He is that good.
I knelt beside Ken, as he was relaxing, watching baseball on the computer and I told him what was made so clear to me. I cried again. But this time they were tears of amazement and thankfulness What an amazing God, that He would care about all my needs and loves me like He does.
It is simply grace and I thank Him for it.
(Written last night)
Today we got a call telling us that Micah's next scan is Oct 2. I wasn't ready to hear it. We have decided to do a scan at 3 months instead of 6 to follow up on Micah's nodule or node or what ever he has in his belly. It is wise to keep an eye on it.
Ken and I struggled with this today. In the last week, I have realized really how far we are away from our safety net. I completely trust the US health system. In some ways, I think they may have it better than Canada. I would not hesitate to bring Micah in, regardless of the cost. God will always provide for our needs.
I think it's the fact that we have a team of doctors and nurses who know Micah and his health history in London.
In the last few days I have cried about this fact. I feel a little insecure. When we heard about the scan it crumbled me.
As I was doing dishes and working through these things, my thoughts were jumbled and my heart was aching at the possibilities. But this is what hit me quite suddenly:
God is so sovereign, is the Almighty, is my Strong Tower and is always faithful. He knows all things and has ordained all things from the beginning of time.
He will take our family where He wants us, when He wants to, and it will completely be for our good, regardless of whether we have sorrow or joy.
It's not always easy to give things over to God, I often fight. It means I am giving up the control I so badly want. But God is so good that He will help me to give it to Him. He will push me and stretch me until I am on my knees. That is where He wants me. He wants me to trust Him. Once I am there, He will take it away. The burden will lift and although I may still ache a little, He gives me a sweet peace.
He is that good.
I knelt beside Ken, as he was relaxing, watching baseball on the computer and I told him what was made so clear to me. I cried again. But this time they were tears of amazement and thankfulness What an amazing God, that He would care about all my needs and loves me like He does.
It is simply grace and I thank Him for it.
Belinda,
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing. I have also been struck by the great love our Father has for us and the lengths He goes to draw us to Him. As I am just starting out on the parenting journey and realizing how much it hurts to discipline my child, it reaches a different level to think how it must hurt Him also to have to push us to reach that dependence on Him and trust in His plan. Learning again and again that His ways are ALWAYS best and for our best. I'm always reminded of the shepherd that has to break the leg of a wayward sheep and then bind it and carry it on his shoulders till it heals. What a picture of tough and tender love that is naturally so foreign to us. AMAZING LOVE!
Thanks for sharing, Belinda. It's always a blessing to be reminded of the Father's amazing love.
ReplyDeleteI'd like to add that I'm praying for Josh. That he will find friends soon that will bless him and that he will have FUN!!!