Prayer for a Little Girl and her Family
There is a little girl named Kate. She has had a brain tumor. She had a clean scan this past summer. A few weeks ago they found a spot on her brain. They are not sure if it's scar tissue or new growth. They were told they had to wait for some weeks for a scan to see really what it is. How difficult it is to wait.
Last night, those who follow her CaringBridge site read that she has started vomiting. For a regular person, we think stomach flu. For a brain cancer kid, we think tumor, especially right now because they know she has an unknown spot on her brain. When you start to connect the dots, the picture is scary.
When kids relapse, whether its for the first or second time it is bleak. First you know the road that your little child and family is going to have to walk. Secondly, the options for treatment are usually very limited after the first time. Everything is so unknown.
The what-ifs are so scary. The thoughts at times are paralyzing. But it could be that Kate has a stomach flu and that she will fine next week. It could be that the spot on her brain is scar tissue. She could live until she is 80..... Only God knows. But, she could also have a brain tumor that is growing.
I understand the pain and fear that her parents must be going through. I am not sure if they have shared their fears with the kids. It is such a hard to line to find. You need to find the line between honesty about how you are feeling and waiting until you know for sure if there is a problem. You need to balance your fear and sorrow of the what if, and the needs of your kids.
At times like these, there are moments when all you can do is pray. There are moments when the words are no more than incoherant pleadings. There are moments when you want to escape, there are other moments when you need to hug your kids. To let out your pain and fear, you take 10 minutes at a time on the bathroom floor sobbing and praying, then you need to get up and ask God to help you put one foot in front of the other to keep going.
The waiting and the wondering you go through as a parent to a cancer child is very difficult. We need to live in today and not fret about every little thing. But we also need to use our mind and pray that God will give the wisdom you need to spot warning signs. It is not a carefree existence. You are always watching.
For those who trust in the Lord for all their needs, know that God will supply grace and strength as we need it. We know He loves our kids more than we do. We know that whatever happens will be for our good and that God has planned the details of our lives even before time began. It is a comfort. But it doesn't take away the pain. Wondering and waiting to know if your child has cancer again or wondering when it will come back just hurts. It is a pain in your heart that is at times even a physical pain.
BUT.......Our God is a great and mighty God. He is the God who hears our prayers. He is also the God that gives us miracles. Please for this family. Pray that the spot in her brain is not cancer and that she has something simple like the flu. What a blessing that would be.
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/mcraekate
In Christ Alone,
Belinda
Last night, those who follow her CaringBridge site read that she has started vomiting. For a regular person, we think stomach flu. For a brain cancer kid, we think tumor, especially right now because they know she has an unknown spot on her brain. When you start to connect the dots, the picture is scary.
When kids relapse, whether its for the first or second time it is bleak. First you know the road that your little child and family is going to have to walk. Secondly, the options for treatment are usually very limited after the first time. Everything is so unknown.
The what-ifs are so scary. The thoughts at times are paralyzing. But it could be that Kate has a stomach flu and that she will fine next week. It could be that the spot on her brain is scar tissue. She could live until she is 80..... Only God knows. But, she could also have a brain tumor that is growing.
I understand the pain and fear that her parents must be going through. I am not sure if they have shared their fears with the kids. It is such a hard to line to find. You need to find the line between honesty about how you are feeling and waiting until you know for sure if there is a problem. You need to balance your fear and sorrow of the what if, and the needs of your kids.
At times like these, there are moments when all you can do is pray. There are moments when the words are no more than incoherant pleadings. There are moments when you want to escape, there are other moments when you need to hug your kids. To let out your pain and fear, you take 10 minutes at a time on the bathroom floor sobbing and praying, then you need to get up and ask God to help you put one foot in front of the other to keep going.
The waiting and the wondering you go through as a parent to a cancer child is very difficult. We need to live in today and not fret about every little thing. But we also need to use our mind and pray that God will give the wisdom you need to spot warning signs. It is not a carefree existence. You are always watching.
For those who trust in the Lord for all their needs, know that God will supply grace and strength as we need it. We know He loves our kids more than we do. We know that whatever happens will be for our good and that God has planned the details of our lives even before time began. It is a comfort. But it doesn't take away the pain. Wondering and waiting to know if your child has cancer again or wondering when it will come back just hurts. It is a pain in your heart that is at times even a physical pain.
BUT.......Our God is a great and mighty God. He is the God who hears our prayers. He is also the God that gives us miracles. Please for this family. Pray that the spot in her brain is not cancer and that she has something simple like the flu. What a blessing that would be.
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/mcraekate
In Christ Alone,
Belinda
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